Yes, I’m an addict!!

Yes I’m an addict. My drug of choice… Heroin. However, that doesn’t mean I won’t do what I have to do to get high, even if it means doing other drugs when offered to me.

Yes, I was paid money for sex to support my habit. It was my daily ritual. Wake up, call a few people to see who was available, meet up at their favourite spot, do our thing, get paid. He would drop me off down the street from my dealers house.

Yes, I overdosed. I overdosed 11 times while being an addict.

Yes, I entered rehab countless times, would leave, and relapse the same day I left. The drugs owned me. Nothing in this world made me feel better than that needle going into my vein.

My addiction started when I was 15. Well, it started much earlier. I come from a family where my siblings were all much older than I am. My oldest brother is 12 years older than I am. When I was 5 he started abusing me. My parents would leave for weekend and week long trips. He would give me alcohol, normally obtained by breaking into my parents liquor cabinet. At first it was just touching. It didn’t become intercourse until I was 9. I tried to tell my parents several times, but he was so good at manipulating them into believing that I was lying and just mad because I wasn’t getting my way. The abuse continued. He started pimping me out to his friends when I was 13. My parents were often gone due to their jobs. I was in the sex trade and my brother was my trafficker. He was making money of his baby sister. At 15, he introduced me to heroin, told me it would be easier to do my job. I said no. He injected me for the first time by having a couple of his friends hold me down. I would go on to fight it for several more days before I enjoyed the fact that I was not conscious long enough to feel what the men were doing. My brother would rent hotel rooms when my parents were gone. I was sedated with the heroin and men would come and go at all hours of the day and night to enjoy their time with me and do what they need.

I finally managed to go to the cops and tell them what had been going on with I was 18. My brother was arrested and served 5 years in prison. But that didn’t stop my addiction. I was hurting on the inside. I was hurting because my own blood should have protected me from men like that. When you think of your older brother, you would think of someone who would protect you from anything. Who would do everything in his power to ensure your safety. But mine didn’t. Mine was my abuser and my trafficker.

I went on to suffer from my addiction until I heard of a great program out west. I decided to give sobriety one more try. And had decided that if I relapsed I was going to do what I needed to do to end my life. I had great counsellors and great people around me. They allowed me to stay for as long as I needed to get better. I spent a better part of a year there before venturing out on my own. I moved back to Ontario, got set up with a great therapist, NA and a sponsor. To this day, 4 years after entering treatment, I still need to talk to my sponsor. And I still need to see my therapist. I suffer from PTSD and have flashbacks to a dark time in my life.

I am putting my story out there because a lot of people are quick to judge us addicts. Yes, I made the decision to continue using drugs after I escaped my abuser. But the drugs allowed me to numb the pain of what happened to me.

I love heroin. But I love my life more. I may be sober today, but I will always be an addict. I will always crave my drug. And I will forever fight to maintain my sobriety.

Some people are not as strong as others. Some people can’t battle their addiction because they are so far in to it. And some are just not ready to face their demons so they continue to use drugs.

Stop judging us. We’re people battling a dark past



164 Responses

  1. Jeff g says:

    This story sounds so made up, sorry…

  2. Thank you for sharing <3

  3. Jason LaFaci Jason LaFaci says:

    Problem now is addicts leave their shit all over the place with no respect for our community…. then we have organizations who push the harm reduction mandate and don’t even follow the rules set within the mandate then finally we got people living in the 80’s and 90’s using the same excuses over and over again …. let’s be real here if your dumb enough to stick a needle in your arm then that’s on you … stop blaming everyone else and anything else as a pity trip to justify your next fix …. addiction comes with manipulation and the poor me syndrome … it’s time for change and it’s time to stop the pity train so we can move forward and get people the real help they need …cuz tax payers and communities across the country are fed up paying for addicts using these tools when we have people in real need of help who are forced to pay for medical care …. there’s so so many other alternatives yet these health units don’t care …. they’re simply in the industry to profit off deaths of addicts

  4. Sorry for what you went though, and congrats for getting clean. We’re all behind you. You got this girl!

  5. Glad your better. You did the work. You found a place that works. Health care system is so overwhelmed people can’t get the help they need. You have to be resourceful. I am so sorry for what happened to you. I am a survivor too. People try to say get over it but its not that easy. It leaves scars it alters how we view the world. I myself have extreme trust issues.

  6. Mel Pilon Mel Pilon says:

    Wow. Such a sad story an yet it us reality for some . Stay strong!!!

  7. Thank you for your story!

  8. Thank you for sharing your story. You are a warrior and obviously a survivor!! Keep your chin up and continue to be strong!!❤️❤️❤️

  9. Heartbreaking story. Hope you will somehow break free of the addiction and able to live a happy life. All the best in the future and thanks for sharing.

  10. Manon Landry Manon Landry says:

    Thank you for sharing your story. ❤️ You are a beautiful, courageous soul. Don’t let the past steal your future! Keep fighting, and reaching out to your supporters. Be proud of how far you’ve come, you are loved. Stay strong! xo

  11. Incredibly courageous, keep fighting those Demond’s, stay strong and thank you for sharing

  12. Angels of Hope Against Human Trafficking -AOH if this brave warrior is ever reachable she would be an amazing story of strength and hope and perseverance as a keynote speaker. Her story could touch many women fighting to stay alive every day.

  13. I hope people read this and think twice next time they judge. You are so brave and hopefully your story makes people understand addiction is NOT a choice.

  14. Matt Gorshin Matt Gorshin says:

    Thank you for sharing your story. The majority of addicts are not out there looking to feel “high”. They are merely self medicating to numb their emotional pain. They are doing it to try to not feel anything at all. Congrats to you and your recovery

  15. thank you for sharing your story. Wishing you peace

  16. Congratulations on your sobriety. Keep fighting!

  17. I’m so sorry you have to go through that and that there was no one to protect you from the abuse or pain.

    Your an inspiration to a lot the people, out in the world who is going through the same thing you went through. Thank you for sharing your story and if it saves just one life, after reading your story, then it was worth telling it.

  18. God bless you for surviving,don’t stop fighting to stay away from drugs .❤

  19. Thanks for sharing. And good luck

  20. Thanks for sharing. And good luck

  21. Lori McInnis Lori McInnis says:

    Absolutely powerful and said as it should be. Your a warrior. Lost my sister not even a week ago to PURP.

  22. Eric RB Eric RB says:

    A hard time believing this story… maybe I just don’t want to because of anger… lots of anger. I will choose to believe it… and what you wen’t threw and here now to say that… that is pure strength. Never forget that… you are a strong person… keep it up … you are a light to many people… keep shining bright and lead them out of darkness.

  23. Wow♥♥♥♥ keep it up!!

  24. The aftermath of drug addiction is not just about your drug addiction. It’s about everything that happened while you were in a coma state. The people that take the children, the special services they may need because of the addiction during pregnancy. The wondering. Oh, the wondering. Where is she, where is she, what is happening!! AND that doesn’t matter if you have had children or not. Drug addiction is a affliction that kills family. I don’t think the ( some) addict’s realize that they have a family nor children, nor anything other than the addiction!. The drugs are too strong. We can’t sit around and see the ruins all around the addiction. The money needed, the pawnshop, the never ending need for more.
    We can’t reel the addict back. We tried. I don’t feel bad now. I am raising her son. He should know her. I don’t have the sympathy I know I should have. BUT I am living her addiction and she is still enjoying it.

  25. Thank you for sharing your story. I can image how hard it is. One day at a time and just for today Everyday. Much love

  26. Thank you for telling your candid and raw story. You are very brave and a fighter for survival despite all of the odds.

  27. You should actually shut comments off ASAP!!! YOU know what it takes to stay sober. Do that, live that, day by day that!!!!! No one in these groups have the support or understanding you need or can get. You can and have gotten through this before and will again. ❤️

  28. Amazing strength! I understand the battle … here’s hoping your story will encourage other addicts to get help and help non addicts to understand where we come from. ❤❤❤

  29. Ron Dubeau Ron Dubeau says:

    I know u didnt disclose ur gender bilut the OP must be female.

  30. Wow ty for sharing. Take everyday 1 day at a time. Move ahead not back. You are amazing xoxo

  31. These discussions are important, props to you for sharing. It’s good to see all of the positive feed back headed your way.

  32. Betty Dupuis Betty Dupuis says:

    may you gain strength from the ones around you that support you day to day…I know from personal experience that this is harder than any other drug out there to quit…the only other one that is harder is a cigarette. I don’t know your name..but thank you for this story and letting others into your world of addiction and why..not all drug addicts are the bad ones..they just got hooked on it because of someone doing what your brother did to you. I will keep you in my prayers and hope that God gives you strength to keep supporting your journey and to give you and show you what real love is about…..

  33. Jenny says:

    Thank you for sharing your story your so strong

  34. Dont stop fighting. Dont stop telling your story- people need to hear it. It’s extremely inspiring. I’m so proud of you, whoever’s you are.❤ you had every ‘reason’s or excuse to just let go – your a superstar.

  35. Congrats and continue to be strong

  36. Thank you for sharing. You have great courage and a great will to live. You will succeed. Wishishing you all the best in your future ❤

  37. I hope sharing your story gave you some peace. Im sure you have given some addict HOPE! Even if you reach one person. You are a strong person who did what you had to do to survive. God bless you and thank you soooo much for sharing your story.

  38. Shawn Sauvé Shawn Sauvé says:

    Well said! Thanks for sharing your story and good on you for taking control back of your life

  39. Maks Bee Maks Bee says:

    You’re a warrior, a survivor and a light that shines at the end of a dark tunnel in so many people’s narratives.
    Being vulnerable and putting yourself out there like this is never easy, so amazing that you were able to put this out there for the rest to read.
    I wish you the healing you deserve and a clean journey on your path <3

  40. Bonnie Mack Bonnie Mack says:

    Thank you for sharing your story. So many ppl judge without knowing the trauma that is the basis of many addictions. I wish you health and ongoing recovery in your daily battle with drugs and demons.

  41. Simmi Gaind Simmi Gaind says:

    You are so brave to share your story. You are not only a survivor, but also a thriver. Thank you for sharing your story. Wishing you much deserved happiness.

  42. Joel Whipple Joel Whipple says:

    That is beyond screwed up.

    Da eff is wrong with your brother??? Five years, that’s it?

  43. So proud of you and that monster of a brother deserves alot more then he got. ❤️

  44. Paige Hughes Paige Hughes says:

    You deserve every ounce of happiness, and every second of sobriety. ♥️

  45. ❤❤❤❤❤ I hope people read this and take that in. And try to understand, that life isnt just black and white. And that addicts are still people.

    You should be so proud of yourself!!

  46. Shanda Bene Shanda Bene says:

    Thx for being brave and sharing ur story! I wish u all the best!! Stay strong!

  47. I cant believe the heartless comments on here.
    I cant imagine how hard it must have been and must be every day for you.
    I dont know you but reading what u wrote if i did know you, Id want you to know how unbelievably proud id be of you. The strenght to fight your struggle daily after being in the situation u described is something fierce and you should be proud of yourself for trying to give yourself better regardless of the demons that try to pull you away.
    You are strong.
    And you are worth the fight that you are fighting for yourself.
    I hope you brother rots and his friends who held you down rot along side him.
    If u ever need someone to talk to. Feel free to pm me anytime.

  48. So proud of you. Thank you for sharing your story and keep fighting I had a bad childhood as well . I didnt start drugs or alcohol to this day but i do know you are a survivor keep pushing yourself

  49. Tanya Werden Tanya Werden says:

    I wish you well. You are stronger than you know. Prayers to you.

  50. Thank you for sharing your story and that your are trying to get better. You are strong and can do it. I can relate to your story but I did not turn to drugs of any kind but got counseling and it made me understand it was not my fault. Many have a deep secret past and work hard to beat it. PTSD is there but you have to work hard to get past it and want to get past it before your past gets the best of you. Keep up the hard work.

  51. Keep going. Never give up life is to precious…believe in yourself…god bless

  52. Jessyka Alexandra Congrats

  53. Keep up the fight OP you got this.
    Your are a brave person to share your story.

  54. Thanks for sharing and keep being sober….. congratulations

  55. You’re very brave to share your story -thank you. Thank you for reminding us that behind our judgments was a 5 year old little innocent girl who was prayed upon by a monster. I say ‘our’ because even myself who I feel am non-judgemental may operate with underlying judgements or stereotypes that I am not even aware of. Our treatment of addicts is a major problem. I hope you keep going and keep reaching out and help a great many with your story ❤️

  56. Phil Morris Phil Morris says:

    There are people that don’t judge you. There are people that don’t judge addicts.

    Thankyou for sharing your story.

  57. Jody Glover Jody Glover says:

    Dear Anonymous!!! So PROUD of your good fight!! What a story. All of us recovering addicts have a story of when or what and why we “were” addicts. All my prayers sunshine…KEEP FIGHTING THE GOOD FIGHT!!

  58. Jody Glover tough girl. Stay strong you deserve the best, no one should hve to go through that.

  59. That’s amazing you choose YOU. What I don’t understand is lots of us battle a dark past, but do not choose to do drugs or alcohol.

  60. Lora Roch Lora Roch says:

    Thank you for sharing. Yes you are right about being an addict. You have been broken, used, manipulated and not heard. I hope that the rest of your life is amazing. Hope you find kind and supportive people in your life.
    Good luck♥️

  61. Ginger Niemi Ginger Niemi says:

    Congratulations on your sobriety! It’s a tough haul, but you have the tools surrounding you to continue on with your new sober life. Keep yourself busy is my suggestion, it helped me tremendously. I’ve been 5 years sober this month.

  62. Thx for sharing what must’ve been a hard story to tell. Hopefully it’ll help or reach at least one person. U take one step at a time & keep up the good fight. U’ve got this !!

  63. That had to take a lot of courage. I hope your post helps at least one person or at least makes them aware that you do have options. Thankful for sharing your story and thank you Shoutout for placing this post.

  64. Is this true. Its anonymous. No judgements here. Just curious.

  65. This just made me tear up… I couldn’t even imagine being in that kind of situation. The strength in you to fight this addiction, as well as all the trauma you’ve been through is outstanding. Not many would be able to do it, let alone share their stories to help others understand, and some to not feel so alone, or so stuck. If you could work on this, many others should feel hope for their situations and be able to turn it around too.
    May your strength continue to grow, may the assholes on here not break you down, and may you keep up the good fight, and find happiness, and a more positive life ahead..
    Many of us forget how lucky we truly are.. Hearing your story has me counting my blessings…

  66. Steve Wrice Steve Wrice says:

    If this story is true, congrats. However, not everyone…..not even close shares your hardships. Heroin addiction, crack or any other injectable drug does NOT give people the right to toss their needles where they please and endanger the public including kids and animals. It does not give an addict the right to steal. It does not give an addict the right to cheat society! It does not give them the right to walk around the downtown areas seeking attention or making establishments look like shit!

    If you want, choose or have been forced to be an addict, fine. So be it. Do it in your own area so our children dont have to see the outcome of what drugs do to the human body! My 4, 10 or 12 year old need not be subject to someone else’s addiction!

    Your story is great….a true success….but never forget…..alot of peoples are just bad fucking decisions!

    • Jo Zee Jo Zee says:

      You said what I wanted to. It’s true, this story is absolutely tragic but to say all addicts are addicts because they have a dark past, is completely false. For many, initially it’s a choice before it turns into an addiction.

    • Steve Wrice the OP hasn’t ever said they had any rights to do anything you are implying they alone are responsible for. Look, there is a system that we’re all part of and we’re all responsible to push leadership to make prudent helpful decisions. Spend money on proven benefits of contact with social workers or spend money on safe injection sites that have never represented any decrease in mortality from drug overdoses. Spend money decreasing class sizes in our schools so that fewer kids fall through the cracks or spend money on increased policing and incarcerations. You pick!

    • Jo Zee Jo Zee says:

      Jacky Montgrain where did he imply that the op alone was responsible for things listed? He said, it doesn’t give “PEOPLE” the right to toss “THEIR” needles……..people and their not ” you” or “your” placing all blame on only the op. Jeez ppl like to make mountains out if mole hills.

    • Steve Wrice Steve Wrice says:

      I never did say the OP said anything about rights. That is what an addict does. They care only for themselves. They care only about the next rip or the next high. They dont care what my growing 4 year old has NO choice but to encounter when we go out. My older boys have no choice but to come face to face with these up and coming issues. Addicts dont care….for you, for me or in all reality, anyone around them.

      Now i wont sit here and say id encourage a drunk driving lane so people can drink and drive. I wont say our school system isnt failing itself with rules that are far too relaxed because of how soft society has become. But in the end…..i will never fucking agree to ridiculous money spent to support “safe injection sites”. Id rather give such a stupid cause 0 dollars and give every penny to our vets, to our seniors or even to research in to finding out a proper way to rid people of drug and alcohol addiction. But to watch people walk in….shoot up until the site closes….then go right back to being societies scabs……not a chance.

      There are many things i agree or dont agree with….that is my opinion and you have yours and it is respected. Thanks for your input….but others opinions will never have the ability to change reality

    • Steve Wrice you missed the point entirely. When you are in that mind frame or lifestyle, sure they don’t have a right to do the things they do but this op is trying to tell you that when you are that thick in it YOU DON’T FUCKING CARE WHAT YOU SHOULD BE DOING. They don’t care about themselves at that point in their life, why would they care about you or your wants? Try reading it again without thinking of a rebuttal at the same time, let it really sink in. This woman just told us awful, horrible things that happened to her. Instead of saying “well, blah blah blah” just say “wow, thank you for sharing your story because I never ever thought of it that way”… And then try to actually think of it from where she was at that time in her life.

    • Steve Wrice Steve Wrice says:

      Lol and read what i wrote. If this story is true, congrats!! I never once took from anyones self gains for a better life. Instead of reading mine with a rebuttal, take your own advice! They dont care about me or my kids…..therefore….i dont give a fuck about them. Welcome to life! That “story” was painting a picture for why people are and become addicts. Im simply stating that is not the case and there are no more selfish people out there other than someone who is looking for their next high.

  67. Wow, thank you for sharing your story. My heart feels happy that you are sober. It’s not easy I’m sure, every day is a battle that you will continue to win. I have always had a soft spot for addicts of any type. You all obviously have a story like everyone else but yours is much deeper then mine. To some it’s the only way to cope with everything. People just need to learn to see that they are human too, with feelings. Show them love and respect. I’m a server and I see all kinds of people and let me tell you that I dont treat so called addicts any different then sober people, not ever. I love everyone the same and treat them the same. Always!! My heart is so big that I love everyone the same.
    Continue the great work and I am super proud of you. You’re an inspiration to many. Lots of love!!

  68. Gale Stewart Gale Stewart says:

    Thank for from the bottom of my heart……for sharing this everything u say is so true…..i am trying to save someone very hard demons and hurt r deep. HANG IN THERE I WILL PRAY FOR U…LOVE U

  69. Lisa Simon Lisa Simon says:

    Thank you for sharing your story

  70. Good luck ..I pray the next half of your life is sober and great .stay strong .

  71. Val Elliott Val Elliott says:

    I totally understand…..i lost 2 sons a week apart :((

  72. Stay strong you will get there. One day at a time is one more day put behind. You got this.

  73. Ginger May Ginger May says:

    You are amazing, strong and so very brave. Thank you for sharing your story and I wish you well in your sobriety ❤❤

  74. Well said ! Keep fighting

  75. Thank you just doesn’t seem to be enough for being so braves and sharing your history! I hope your message plants seeds to grow in those who look down on addicts! Hugs

  76. This right here is a true story of courage ♥️

  77. Thank you for sharing your life story thus far. I am so thankful you are where you are today and that you have the courage to go on. I know its not easy and I truly wish you the best in life. ….

  78. Ben Stronge Ben Stronge says:

    Very brave to post this!

  79. You’re a beautiful person. Thank you so much for sharing your story. ❤️ Congratulations on your sobriety, I truly wish you all the best. I hope you continue to heal, you’re a true warrior. Xo

  80. Thank goodness you’re now sober. It’s a tough choice to make and I’m glad it’s working for you now. You deserve to be happy and you deserve The life you are working towards. Here’s to hoping you stay clean.

  81. Sue Topps Sue Topps says:

    Prayers for you all!!!

  82. Very brave to put this put there. Thank you.

  83. people who judge addicts make me so angry. having lost my dad to an overdose, this is some serious stuff. not everybody has the guts to try to get sober, you owe it to yourself to be proud!♥️

  84. Paige Ashley Paige Ashley says:

    Ashley Marsolais Wow! I pray you never have a child who suffers through this kind of turmoil

  85. Josie Barnes Josie Barnes says:

    one day at a time <3

  86. Please keep sharing your story. ❤️

  87. Kim Willis Kim Willis says:

    I see a lot of people on here still need their 6 seconds of fame with their comments.

    I think your story needs to be shared more, because some still don’t understand.

    I think you are amazing for finally letting go of that poison, and I can understand how hard it must have been when the one who is supposed to protect you, used you and made you feel worthless. And I’m sorry that someone thought they had a right to do that. 5 years is NOT enough for the damage that was permanently done. I’m extremely proud of you for surpassing this. And thank you for your story ❤

    • 100%..
      It’s truly sad how some feel the need to be ignorant assholes.. especially when someone opens up about such personal traumas. Situations like this, people should either show some support, kudos, or just shut up and scroll past.. But those assholes tend to be the ones with their own demons, but simply refuse to work on them. They find their “fix” not with drugs, but by trying to break others down with their words. Cowards is what they are..

    • Kim Willis Kim Willis says:

      I agree Shawna, we have become a generation of me me me, we don’t want to hear about the struggles and the overcomes of others, we want the spotlight. I have never done drugs, but I can imagine the addiction it causes and the euphoria or else no one would be doing them if it sucked. They know the risks, they know the dangers, but the hunger is too strong. And so I admire those who were able to turn their lives around and willing to struggle every day to fight that toxic. Anyone who is working hard to make their lives better deserves to be admired.

    • Kim Willis “want the spotlight”… nailed it.. you are 100% right.. and negative comments tend to get the most of them…unfortunately..

  88. Pat Hallett Pat Hallett says:

    Thank you for sharing your story

  89. Gabby Davis Gabby Davis says:

    I destroy homes, tear families apart – take your children, and that’s just the start.
    I’m more costly than diamonds, more costly than gold – the sorrow I bring is a sight to behold.
    And if you need me, remember I’m easily found.
    I live all around you, in schools and in town.
    I live with the rich, I live with the poor, I live down the street, and maybe next door.
    My power is awesome – try me you’ll see.
    But if you do, you may never break free.
    Just try me once and I might let you go, but try me twice, and I’ll own your soul.
    When I possess you, you’ll steal and you’ll lie.
    You’ll do what you have to just to get high.
    The crimes you’ll commit, for my narcotic charms, will be worth the pleasure you’ll feel in your arms.
    You’ll lie to your mother; you’ll steal from your dad.
    When you see their tears, you should feel sad.
    But you’ll forget your morals and how you were raised.
    I’ll be your conscience, I’ll teach you my ways.
    I take kids from parents, and parents from kids, I turn people from God, and separate from friends.
    I’ll take everything from you, your looks and your pride, I’ll be with you always, right by your side.
    You’ll give up everything – your family, your home, your friends, your money, then you’ll be alone.
    I’ll take and I’ll take, till you have nothing more to give.
    When I’m finished with you you’ll be lucky to live.
    If you try me be warned this is no game.
    If given the chance, I’ll drive you insane.
    I’ll ravish your body, I’ll control your mind.
    I’ll own you completely; your soul will be mine.
    The nightmares I’ll give you while lying in bed.
    The voices you’ll hear from inside your head.
    The sweats, the shakes, the visions you’ll see.
    I want you to know, these are all gifts from me.
    But then it’s too late, and you’ll know in your heart, that you are mine, and we shall not part.
    You’ll regret that you tried me, they always do.
    But you came to me, not I to you.
    You knew this would happen.
    Many times you were told, but you challenged my power, and chose to be bold.
    You could have said no, and just walked away.
    If you could live that day over, now what would you say?
    I’ll be your master; you will be my slave.
    I’ll even go with you, when you go to your grave.
    Now that you have met me, what will you do?
    Will you try me or not?
    Its all up to you.
    I can bring you more misery than words can tell.
    Come take my hand, let me lead you to hell.”

  90. If you wanted better bad enough, you’d do better. But unfortunately, some people enjoy their sickness and that’s just how their story will end. You ever seen a heroin addict make it to an old age home… that’s because addicts get clean or die. And that’s the truth.

    I hope you were not here looking for a pity party or any sympathy. The only sympathy I have is for all the children left behind by parents choosing heroin over their own flesh and blood.

    • did you even read the post? Do you even know what heroin does to you?

    • Ashley Marsolais What is wrong with you? Did you not read the message she was conveying? Holy shit. Smh. It was a post to encourage other users that there is hope for recovery if you actually read it correctly. I’m not a user.. but i hope it actually touched someone and gave someone some hope. Go do something productive besides posting something dumb without understanding the meaning.

    • Oh my. May God have mercy on you

    • Jenna Rae Jenna Rae says:

      OP was a child left behind

    • Its true that people often make an initial choice to stick that needle in their arm, and that is on them. And yes, ultimately, it takes a hard choice to stop being an addict, one of the most difficult choices that there is. But this woman didn’t choose this, it was forced upon her from a tender age and this became her life. How could it not have when she knew nothing else but pain, exploitation, and betrayal? SHE is the child that was left behind, one of the children that you are referring to.

      I’m as hard hearted and a cynical S.O.B. as them come, but you lady take the cake LOL

    • Ashley Marsolais you are heartless bitch who probably had life handed to her. Shut up..

    • Ashley Marsolais ur an imbecile-

    • Ashley Marsolais Congrats you win the gold metal for the most ignorant comment ever. Doesn’t even sound like you read her post.

    • I know many people who lived a fucked up life. But they decided to be better then that.

    • There are real resources for getting help. Being dealt shitty cards in life isn’t a good reason to keep playing those shitty cards.

    • hey Ashely were your friends forced to take heroin as a teen while they were raped? cause I don’t think your apples to oranges BS matters here. one dose of the stuff btw on a child will permanently change their brains fyi. To think you are doubling down on your hateful remarks…

    • I’d like to see any one of you catch one of these heroin addicts robbing your house or car at night and see how you treat them than.

    • Bonnie Mack Bonnie Mack says:

      Ashley Marsolais are you a child of an addict? If so, you have a right to your feelings. However this is a message of pain, survival and hopefully ongoing struggle in the fight of addiction. Trauma causes all kinds of problems. For example veterans often struggle with addictions and suicide. Does that make them losers too? Life isn’t black or white but many shades of grey.

    • Just kindly remember to use a sharps container. And tell your friends.
      This disaster was just picked up today downtown.

    • Okay, lets take your ridiculous cards analogy a step further……

      You’re playing Texas Hold ‘Em. You draw 2-7 off suit and peaking at your opponent’s hand you see they they have A-A. You naturally fold. Your opponent, who also saw your hand, mocks you for folding, and tells you to smarten up and get better cards next time because “being dealt shitty cards isn’t a good reason to keep playing shitty cards”. Do see now how inane that is?

      This woman’s chip stack may not be nearly so large as your’s, but at least she is still in the game. Considering what she has been through, even that is a miracle. You know what I mean?

    • My 2 son’s don’t have a father because of heroin. I have my own reasons for being biased. None the less, trust me when I say heroin will steal your soul if you let it.

    • Yeah, that picture repulses and infuriates me. However, I still don’t see how that is supposed to dull my ability to recognize that these people need help, whether they know it or not.

    • Dennis LeDrew yes she had a traumatic childhood. I got that. My point here is, that shouldnt just be it ? that doesn’t mean she doesn’t deserve to be happy and have some goals and something to possibly look forward too in life. Don’t let him win. Fight for your life back. Imagine the strength this woman would build if she got the help she needed for the trauma and the addiction … people that come through this shit are the people that help save the other woman in her shoes.

    • Ashley Marsolais Hey Ashley! Why don’t you just start your own post so you can go off on your own and we can all quit reading your shit please. You’re distracting us all from this woman’s courageous story which could help someone else suffering from addiction and may need to read this story and these comments. Thanks.

    • Well Ashley, perhaps this post was her first step. So how is it being helpful to dump all over that?

    • Ashley Marsolais seriously, shut up. You are only making yourself sound worse. “Your sons don’t have their fathers because of heroine” YOU chose to sleep with them.. Shall we insult you, judge you, and shame you for that??? NO.. Because LIFE happens, and it’s NOT up to you to throw stones, ESPECIALLY while living in a glass house.
      Grow up, and learn some humanity. Not all addicts are by choice. Read the full post, and actually let it sink in before you speak.

    • Ashley Marsolais soooo what does ur unfair life have to do with this story of a when as a 5 yr old she was forced to start down a long path of ugliness & how she’s trying to cope one day @ a time & letting the world know of her pain & how she’s trying to over come. Yes – u may have ur bad experience too – but quit being so rude & heartless to another human being – ur just being downright rude & ignorant

    • I’m so grossed out and disgusted right now by everything you’ve said. I will pray for you girl …

    • Sounds like Ashley needs help herself for grief and trauma. Go see someone who can chisel away at that rock of a heart you have and help you heal. Pray your children never become addicted to anything, because there is direct evidence that addiction is heredatary. Your son’s won’t recieved any compassion from you if they do considering the statements you are making. Go get help, and stop judging others and lashing out at them because of your pain. Peace Ashley. I wish you well.

      • Shannon Wilson says:

        Actually pray to your children that they never try and get clean and meet a cockroach like Darrin. He will supply them with drugs and alcohol in order to fulfill his desires. No matter the consequence.

        Your day will come. Your day is near.

  91. I dont judge
    I’ve been through allot also and it is NOT easy. Addiction cant be easy. Thank you for sharing and keep on fighting. Good job for comming this far. Keep on being sober 🙂

  92. Keep being sober! ❤️❤️❤️

  93. Keep fighting the good fight, dear. You’re worth it.

  94. Peter Barry Peter Barry says:

    I dont judge anyone….addiction cant be easy….my problem is with the people who just toss needleswherever they want….when your addiction becomes a hazard to others…its a concern

  95. Casey Earle Casey Earle says:

    Thank you for sharing your story. Hopefully it can really help others out there not to give up on themselves.

  96. Dean Farinha Dean Farinha says:

    I judge you for wasting time posting a friggen book.

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