Wasn’t meant to be
You put up with a lot but was never able to take what you dished out, you never were open enough about problem for your other half to help mend them, you thought your friends had all the answers but it wasn’t a relationship between your friends it was between you and your significant other.
They let you get away with things and never lost their temper over what you did, but you would rip them apart if they ever slipped up.
You were toxic even though you think you weren’t because you could never take responsibility for your mistakes. You can’t hide away playing the broken victim your whole life bound to repeat the SAME things later.
Get some help get new friends learn that if you can’t communicate with the one dating you, then you should never have held onto them in the first place