Time to check out?

I think it’s time for me to check out if this existence. Everything my hands touch turns to failure. My entire youth was mired in failure. Academics, sports, arts, religion, friendships… Only failures to speak of. My marriage, a failure. I’ve tried my best to be a good dad, an inspiring role model, and I’ve failed at that. No friends. No family. My career only highlights how much of a failure I truly am. I can’t honestly take the failure, rejection, and being disposed of anymore.

Dreams are gateways to failure. Hopes are doorways to disappointment. Love is an imaginary concept. And life is meaningless.

It’s said that Suicide is Painless, but I’m afraid I’d fail at that too.



5 Responses

  1. anonymous says:

    Posting on this site will not help you. In fact any time spent on this vicious, finger pointing site is not good for anyones mental health. Please seek professional help and don’t post on sites where some may actually encourage, or mock mental health issues.

  2. Anonymous says:

    What may seem ‘painless’ to you will create extremely painful times, memories, for those who care about you. Your kids don’t deserve to live with that kind if pain for the rest of their lives. Still time to decide what makes a successful father and husband and plan for that

  3. Anonymous says:

    Many of what you call failures can be turned into important life lessons for you, your children, and your family. There is always time to turn things around, especially for your children. Please don’t create a suicide legacy for your children to follow suit and fulfill later in life. Asking for help and getting it are some of the biggest successes you can have in life.

  4. Anonymous says:

    No matter how much you hurt suicide is never the answer,what you see as failure is just life lessons at least you tried that’s more than can be said for alot of people. Don’t be afraid of radical change new places, new people,new adventure chin up friend.

  5. Anonymous says:

    I’ve contemplated it thoroughly and there is no painless way. Also if you take the leap so to speak, how many more will follow suit? That is definitely not painless.

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