How do I back out of my wedding?
My wedding is literally weeks away and I am seriously having second thoughts. I haven’t told my fiance or my parents or siblings or even my friends.I haven’t told anyone yet.
I thought I was marrying my soulmate but now that the date is getting closer I am feeling suffocated and having terrible night terrors. I think I may very well be making a mistake. I am engaged to my highschool sweetheart and we moved in before we even finished our postsecondary studies.
I thought this was all I had ever dreamed of doing, that I would be living the dream, but now I am thinking I haven’t had a chance to experience dating other people to make sure this is my true love and the person I want to spend the rest of my life with.
I am not sure we want the same things in the future and I don’t either of us has really experienced enough of life to make such a huge decision that is supposed to last for the rest of our life. I would let so many people down and we would have wasted so much money if I don’t go through with the wedding.
I love my fiance but I am afraid that if I say what I am thinking I would lose this person for the rest of my life also. I don’t know if we could just continue to live together and maybe marry at a later date. I think it would maybe just end our relationship and I am afraid to take that gamble. I could never confide in a therapist. I write things down and that sometimes helps me think things through, but I think I could use some advice.
Do I just go through with the wedding because we have come so far and I thought this was the only thing I ever wanted? Do I back out of it and let everyone down?