Does it get better?
Everyday I want to die. I’m not living for myself I’m living for my kids. Sometimes I think I have support, but I really don’t. My partner is an addict. I don’t get along with my dad he’s a dick. My mom doesn’t have my back, she justifies most of his behaviour towards me. I have one friend, but she has her own life. We all want that love and comfort from our significant other but if they’re not doing well, then you’re pretty much on your own. That’s really how I feel, alone.
Everyday I have to keep it together for the kids. I don’t find joy in literally anything that I used to love. I used to sing my heart out but lost interest because I wasn’t “popular enough” and nobody supported anything I liked to do and I was always too shy to share my talent with the world and would just delete my video and give up.
I want to be numb for a while but that’s never the solution. I missed my mark to fit in. I just want to be saved. I want some kind of spiritual awakening or SOMETHING to get me out of my rut. I don’t want to live like this.