Being played for a fool and needing to vent
He played me for a fool more then once . Not only did he play me for a fool for years . He pretended to love me , not only did he play me for a fool , but he pretended to love me in front of my family . Like it was a big show he was putting on .
One year for Christmas he came to my moms house to be with me . We played cards and we laughed and had a great time , he was kissing me and saying he loved me in front of everyone . And yes it may be half of my own fault for falling for his lies . When he would say he loved me or that he couldn’t picture his life without me in it . I fell for it all the time . For years even . But now when I think about all the lies and he playing me . I cut myself because I want to feel different pain then the one he put me through . So yes I may have scars on my arms maybe for ever . But I have a scar on my heart that I think will never heal . I never want to feel that pain again and I still feel it every day .
I am sorry to anyone who may be going Through the same thing , but I have no one to talk to because I have 0 friends who understand what I went through